4/17/11

Stuff I'd Like to Say but Don't:

i used to never (ever) think about if what i had to say was offensive. the time i asked a spinster church teacher why, if motherhood was so important, she wasn't out there multiplying and replenishing the earth looms especially large. the result of my uninhibited expression?

for 25 years everyone thought i was a major jerk. (i was)

somewhere along the way i decided that i wanted people to like me. so pulled my head out of my heine and learned a few social skills, in particular that one should make an effort to consider the experiences, values, and opinions of others before opening one's big fat self righteous mouth.

so the upside of this is that i've learned how to not loose friends and alienate people. on the other hand, i've become paranoid about being offensive. now trust me, having everyone think you are a jerk is no picnic, but constantly worrying about offending people is downright exhausting. and if you'll permit me to get really melodramatic here, not ever saying anything because you are worried about causing offense is downright soul crushing.

i guess this is a long way of saying that i've got some stuff i need to get off my chest. so in no particular order:

1. i'm sending my kid to daycare. i don't want to hear a bunch of BS about how kid is going to turn into a sociopath and always have colds. trust me, it is better than the alternative.

2. i think it ridiculous that the "largest womens organization in the world" has to get permission from a bunch of men before they do anything. let's stop trying to pretend we are something that we are not.

3. tacquitos aren't diet food and when you tell me you want to loose weight and then snarf a costco sized bag, don't expect me to pat you on the back and say, "good choice."

4. i want to have a puppy more than i want to have a baby. it definitely has something to do with the fact that daycare for babies costs $2,500/month while daycare for puppies is a relative steal at just $515/month.

5. if i am really going to be honest with myself--SL,UT isn't so bad after all. in fact, i sort of like it here. i might buy a house here. i might stay here a while. i've probably just lost all credibility with some of my friends for saying this.

6. if he doesn't ask you out, it isn't that he is intimidated by you.
the fact is: HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU. move along.


so that's all. actually it isn't, but that is all i am brave enough to post on my blob. so there. judge me. anything you want to get off your chest? stuff you'd like to say but don't?

7 comments:

Bonnie White said...

As you well know, stuff I like to say pretty much gets said. And brace yourself, stuff that hasn't been said, will. The tree hasn't veered too far away from the apple.

Sherrie said...

Um, I never knew how perfect you were for Mike... now I know. You would love our mutual friend Jennie Preece. Let's lunch some day.

Mercedes said...

mom: you saying what you want to say is one of the things i love most about you.

sherrie: oh yes please let's do. lunch dates=my favorite thing ever. i'll try not to be too offensive. will you let me know when you are in the utah area? (and i will let you know when i am in idaho--it might be soon actually because mike has been assigned to mountain home for JAG duty).

Sherrie said...

I'm still thinking about your post... another reason you're perfet for mike.

I agree with exactly half of your stated opinions. The other half makes me, hmmmmm. I do love that you "don't" say the things you wish you could.

Mountain home is pretty far from Idaho Falls actually, bummer. I'll visit Salt Lake this summer though, and you'll make the cut for sure.

Mercedes said...

sherri: i'm kind of impressed that you agree with 50% of what i said. wow! i can't wait to meet you!

of course agreeing on anything isn't a prerequisite for a relationship...after all i married michael and i agree with about .05% of what comes out of his trap.

ok maybe it is more like 10&. point is, engagement on issues is may favorite thing (after lunch dates).

Char said...

I love your blog.

Lauren said...

i love and adore you, mostly because of this:

"the time i asked a spinster church teacher why, if motherhood was so important, she wasn't out there multiplying and replenishing the earth looms especially large."